When Things Are Not Moving and You Want Them Too!I

I guess I am the aftermath of Hurricane Sandy. My community is still off school, trying to get up and running. I live on a road with maybe 7 houses and there is a tree down across a main road with no sign of anyone managing it, it is indeed why I still have no power. From the looks of things, there is nothing to be done but wait to be connected.

Fortunately, I have a generator and can write, my favorite thing, and there is lots of time, I feel like I am in a time warp. There is not all this cleaning, cooking or work to be done. I am warm and safe with no real damage about. Yet, I am restless, wanting to be doing something, not sure what that is.

In thinking over my life I have many times had a ton of energy and was not quite sure where to direct it. I study and teach about energy for that very reason. I have tons and focussing it properly is a life lesson. So here how do I deal with this?

 This feeling of wanting to do, to make money, to be busy offering my gifts and I am hand tied. I feel that there is no direct path forward to move forth when we are just trying to get the kids in school. So I must sit and consider the confusion of it. All ideas seem futile other than just visiting with others. That actually seems delightful, a way to pass time. But when I do that, I still feel like i am not moving,  I am playing around and with the ecomony as it is, I should not be visiting, I should be working to make money.

This is the ambition/artist, ying/yang, masculine/feminine pull. So trained in production that if I do not have any, I am reprimanded for not doing what I should. Even though the visit will sing my heart, maybe learn something to move forward or learn some great tidbit from conversation and visit that could expand me, it seems like an inefficient way to move. It is because it is a relaxing way to move, I may not feel the total joy because my training will be in my head that says tomorrow you better get something done. As though this doing is not productive. what happened to Steven Covy's 1/4 of our life should be in relaxation and vacation???

It is quite the work monster we have created in ourselves. To be productive 24/7. No down time, how fast can you run, what did you do today kind of thinking. The one who did the most has most value. But that certainly is not true often. So why this ingrained tale we speak to ourselves in. Seems to me this self talk is always yelling at me or thinking I will get in trouble for just enjoying the moment as it unfolds. So despite this philosophy of being in the now, in awareness, our own training is not supporting such. The 2 voices so to speak.

Being braizen and seeing no way to be productive according to the system, I will do the visit. I am off to visit a friend, have some coffee with pumpkin spice eggnog. I will take this as down time to just enjoy, even though my mind would have me do otherwise. I will savor this visit more than others knowing I am challenging my critical mind on this autumn Thursday.

I think clearly this feminine movement needs to get going through our culture so todays visit has equal value of the productive work. It will relax me, fill me with joy, I love to connect and communicate, discuss life issues and giggle at our strategies we try. It actually will raise my vibe in my body more, create more lightness to life and actually spin my spirit a bit. One day we will realize the health of this balance of production and relaxation. It won't be me challenging myself, it will be the way we live knowing this down time is purposeful. For now we have to unroot it within ourselves. I hear that relaxation is key but do I really do it, do I live honoring myself that way and give it allowance. Not usually! Some practice to be done.

So do something creative, visiting, hiking, an enjoying endeavor when things seem stuck. You can shift your disposition, which in the end  changes it all. My advice for those of relentless energy, go relax somewhere and savor it. It may bring you strength and energy for the next leg that is moving right around the corner. You retrain your body to feel the vibration of what chillin really feels like. Something we have lost touch with! While we bide our time, lets have some fun!